Some say I'm funny, smart, pretty and have a good heart. I don't see that some times. I see an unlovable person.
Men have left me, cheated on me, abused me and used me.
I have been left in the wake of the chaos wondering why. I've been told that I deserve so much more than I've gotten but it never happens.
It becomes so hard to trust that the next one won't be like the others. I am taken advantage of and tossed aside like a used tissue.
Wounds cut deep and they take long to heal.
Why would someone want to love a mess like me?
Who would be brave enough?
What would even attract them to my soul?
I know it is hard to believe that I think this way. Feeling unlovable is an incredibly painful experience.
We all deserve love and to love but it doesn't always happen like the fairy tales and that's kind of sad.
Therapy helps with dealing with my thought process at times but when my guard is down, I let myself feel a little self pity.
When a person if feeling unloved, they usually believe that other people are the cause or source of the feeling. IN reality, feeling unloved is ultimately the result of an unresolved conflict within ourselves.
No one is capable of fixing me, I have to figure out what unresolved conflict is in me and resolve it.
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