She decided to get up from the couch and head for bed. She locked the doors and turned out the lights and slowly climbed the stairs.
She checked in on the children, gave them each one last kiss goodnight and sighed. The children became instant reminders of the broken promises made by their fathers. Today was a long day.
She turned her light on low and hung up her work clothes from earlier that evening and changed into her pajamas. Thoughts of him filled her mind and she flipped on the tv for an instant distraction. The late night show that they cuddled and watched together filled the screen. Tears stung in her eyes and she cursed the power that he still had over her.
Days turned into months since she had last heard from him; her calls went unanswerd, her text messages were ignored. This is the time of night that they usually spent talking and laughing and now it just became empty and silent.
She quickly swore at Jay Leno and turned him off with the push of a button.
She lay in the darkness with memories in her head. The tears wouldn't stop no matter how hard she fought them. She damned him for not letting her go, not telling her it was over, not speaking to her at all.
She wished that she mattered more to him. Her friends said that she deserved better. She wanted a normal relationship but was left empty and broken with no answers and no closure. He has said that he loved her and she believed him. She felt like a fool. Her tears mourned for her heart.
Eventually the tears slowed and she was tired. Tomorrow was another day.
She sighed and covered herself as she rolled over and said good night to nobody.
